LAST MONTH

I've funny news, it's about Chinese national bird. Maybe you know that, because it happen about last month. Chinese have not national bird, but they have to need it for Olympic, so they dicided vote. The first Chinese national bird is "JAPANESE CRANE", .... JAPANESE!? It's very funny. They didn't know what is English name, Chinese and Japanese say "TANCHO", and then they wanted to change the name, ... change!? If you have seen chinese painting or dress, there's TANCHO, but not all. So they thought TANCHO is Chinese symbol (I agree) , and problem is English name, they wanted to change the name... If English name is changed, scientific name is not change. You know "TANCHO"'s scientific name is "GRUS JAPONESIS". Japanese, mostly we think they're strange as expected.
I've Chinese friend, she's very clever and beautiful. I like her, and I don't want to speak evil of them. But Chinese have copy of Japanese, it's many things, and their manner is too bad in Japan, and politics is dirty... Probably mostly Japanese think like me, because many Japanese peopele say it on Blog.

ANONYMOUS

Anonymous contributed comment to the diary of the day before yesterday. Anonymous who admit "I'm ex-boyfriend", I think it's ture because that sentence is like ex-boyfriend, absolutely I know my English is poor.
Actually I'm 31 years old, and ex-boyfriend is not one. And this blog is mine, I can write anything, but I understand that don't write someone's phone number and address or particular who is and that kind of stuff that it's bad. I think he's really foolish, he dosen't contribute comment that is good. If he didn't, nobody knows who is ex-boyfriend. Why he did contribute? Is he doing that just to annoy me? He has really good sense of humor. The first he hurt me... I don't know why he wants to contact with me.
I can't go on like this, it's not possible to close the gap between he and me opinions, and he dosen't know anything about women, I think the same with me, I can't understand about the men. Anyway it goes without saying that I'm glad he felt that way, because he never contact me again. I hope it, but I hate like me.

ALIAS

Do you know "ALIAS"? It's famouse TV drama, I watch at it recently. It's funny story, I like it. But I can't to think Jennifer Garner (Sydney) is pretty or beautiful. She's normal. Probably normal is good impression...? Anyway I like Michael Vartan, he's sexy. He was performed the teacher in the film "NEVER BEEN KISSED" with Drew Barrymore. That story is too sweet, but if you are the girl and see it, you'll like him. Actually ALIAS is very famouse in Japan now.

BLOCK

If I said "No", no is no. Many people who is likes me, I think. No is no. But there's foolish person who can't understand what's mean. Very funny. Anyway I don't want to run away from the person who is like this foolish. And I say it many times, "no is no" and I try to do it until who understand it. "No is no" Mostly if try to say it many times, foolish understand it. But sometimes not.
Now my ex-boyfriend, he's like a this foolish. So I need a measure of safety for it, mean is block. It's better than talk more right now. But I think not right the way, but I don't know what should I do. I've no idea. Its makes me tired very much. I just want to be alone, and want to move to the future.

PICASSO

My friend present me the DVD "LE MISTERE PICASSO" last week. I like PICASSO's picture, but I don't know about him very well. I just have been some gallery of his picture. My friend, he knows me, and present me. Anyway that DVD is very interesting, because I can see what he has drawn the picture. It's only 80min, very short, but I satisfied by it.
I call on friend when I see it. Because talk is a few, BGM is not bad. It's very interesting, so I can't catch friend's voice sometimes.
LINK (YouTube)
It's not all, only few min, but you can see he draws the picture.

THE LAKE HOUSE

I like the film, and I like romantic love story, but almost that story is very cheaper. Sometimes close to real, but it's ridiculous. But THE LAKE HOUSE was good story, I like it.
Almost films not perfect, some scene is very strange. THE LAKE HOUSE have strage scene like another film, and not real. But I like it, because they trusted each other. It's my ideal.
If you haven't seen it, I recommend see it. It's ridiculous but there's heart.

SANDMAN

If you have seen Spiderman3 or read comic of Spiderman, you know Sandman. I think he's invincible. But let's you think, experiment in order to hide in the night, I understand, but if there's strange things, don't verify? Sandman is born when chemists didn't verify. It's very strange. If there were the bird, it change Sand? ...mmm funny, it's comic. Anyway I had a dream what is about that experiment when I felt scare. I knew it's dream when I have a dream. But many things changed like a Sandman. Very scare. Actually I work up when laughted, becuase it's dream but I felt scare, I laughted myself. Anyway I wanted to meet Spiderman and he help me in my dream.

HAPPY

I'm really happy today. Because A.C.Milan got win. This early morning I saw CL final on the TV, it was really exciting! But actually it was not good match. Anyway Ringhio, he is nice player, I love him very much. He has fixation on win, sometimes its makes bad and dirty play, but I love like a his passion. I think all player must have passion for win. Anyway I'm happy A.C.Milan got win.
And I've another happy, because I went to see the film "Spiderman3" in this noon. The reputation of this film is almost bad. But it's really nice for me, I had enjoy to see it and then I bought brochure. I went to see it with friend, he likes Spiderman like me, our chat had a lively conversation, and he's cool guy, very sweet, it was like a date, absolutely not date. Anyway I'm happy for today.

MY CAT

Today my cat she was going to operate for contraception, but she took a blood sample, her ATL was very high, it mean perhaps her liver is not good. And she needs to take a medicine for 2 weeks. I don't want she takes medicine, but if she has an operation she die... I don't want. So we wait to have an operation until 2 weeks later.
Now I can hear kitty's voice, maybe some kitty are in the garden the next door, very cute voice, but they'll kill maybe. I want to bring up them like Fila, but my house is small, my mother doesn't like many cats, firstly I've no money. But I'm going to do something for them. What should I do...?

EXHAUSTED

Today I went to the doctor for my disease as usual. But it was not as usual, because I went out at 9:30 am, and I back home at 3:30!!! So I'm very tired. And my mind is bad, I'm dying for Fila's operation. I'm really worried about it. She's very lovely and my family. If she die for it, I can't live.

GOAL!

Do you know "GOAL!"? It's film. I saw it on TV proglam tonight. The second film "GOAL!2" is released on May 26th. I thought it's not interest, but after seeing I thought that it's good film. Actually I can saw Raul, I love his play and sweet mask. But this time, he doesn't play on film, he just say "hello" and smile.
There's a lottery, "toto" in Japan. It's the lottery which expects the victory or defeat of the J league. In addition, there is also a lottery, BIG in toto. This is decided entirely with the computer. The computer decides the lottery and the lottery the around which you buy. The previous result did NOT have the lottery the around. Perhaps it deceives, it's very strange. If your lottely is hit, you can get 600,000,000 Yen!

SPIDERMAN

Have you seen Spiderman3? I'm not yet. I really want to see it very much! Maybe my friend, he'll be free and we can go to cinema in the week after next. I can hardly wait any more. By the way I go to cinema with him that is the first time. I don't know why, our interest is very close but we didn't. Maybe he had girlfriend or I had boyfriend. Anyway I'm really looking forward to see it! WOW!
I'm worried about Fila, and my health, and stuff, but Spiderman makes me happy! He is my hero too :D

FREE

I'm free, mean is single. My last love was finish when about 3 weeks ago. Ex-boyfriend, he broken my heart, maybe he was thinking I hurt him by my selfish, but I don't think so. Because he was liar and I was not the first of him. What do you think about partner and friend? The both is very important existence for life. But almost people who think partner is important more than friends, don't you think so? Anyway our opinion was different. Now I think finish was good choice. What's done can't be undone.
If ex-boyfriend and me, our relationship start again, we'll fight the same problems. Sometimes people change, but it's not easy. So I don't want, never. Actually my last love's image is bad and disgusting, because I really loved him. Am I wrong?
Recently my love life is like that, not good. I don't want to have relationship now, but the truth I want to love someone like a Ophelia. Shakespeare is great writer. I love his poem and story, he said in the poem "-But if the while I think on thee, dear friend, all losses are restored, and sorrows end.", I want to feel like that.

CASANOVA

As you know, if you say in English "I'm Casanova", that mean is you're debauchee and promiscuity. He has itinerancy, but I think it's natural, becuase the people want pleasure. Anyway I saw "Casanova" today, it's film. You know, this story is about the man who is Casanova. I prefer film of Donald Sutherland more than Heath Ledger's. Because story of Ledger's film is love comedy. I like love comedy, but it's not funny, I can see directer makes funny. If you know trick of magic, have you fun to see it? But I have seen it 3 times, because dress and stage is very beautiful.

APPOINTMENT

I've a veterinary clinic appointment for Fila. If there's no problem, she'll operate for contraception on next Tuesday. I wanted do it more early, but I have to go to my doctor on Monday. Anyway I research about clinic, and then decided. But I still worried about it.
By the way I have a news. Keisuke Kuwata, he release new CD today. He is very famous musician in Japan. He has a group "Southern All Stars", he is vocal but he write lyric, play piano and guitar. I love his voice very much, and this song is very warm, I was moved by lyric. And listening to his music relaxes me, because my parents likes his music, and I heard his music the first time when I was a child. I'll listen to this song before go to bed, so I can sleep tonight maybe. You know, the key to a good night's sleep is relaxation of both body and mind.
Keisuke Kuwata's WebSite http://www.sas-fan.net/kuwata2007/top.html
Check it out! I hope you like his music.

DREAM

"The tragedy of life dosen't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having on goal to reach." by Benjamin Mays
I had some dreams, for example, go to Rome, go to Egypt... I can't remember other dreams. Now I want to go to Rome, Egypt, but I haven't passion, not like before. If I can't go there, never mind. It's very strange, I don't know why. I don't know what should I do now.
Maybe my Fila she's going to operation for prevent pregnancy, and I'm worried about it. If I lost her? If... "if" is if, it's in the future, God only knows, but I'm dying for it. I need relax and don't think it now. I know, but now I only think about it. pffff...

CHANGE

I canged decoration in my room. Now big world map in the wall. This map have all national flag. And I think almost national flag have red and green. Why? mmm...... why? It's strange. In Japan, white and red is for celebration, white and black is for funeral, and then I understand Japanese national flag is white and red. But I don't know why green is. Then I remember the man who teach me in the shrine, "green is lucky color" or "happy" or "good"... and stuff like that.
"We must change in order to survive" by Pearl Mae Bailey

MOTHER'S DAY

It's mother's day. And I made Jinbe for her. She was really glad to get it, and she put on it tonight for sleep. I'm glad she is happy. I want to see her smile more every day. Thank you my mum. xxx.

FIREND

Today my firends visited my home. We took a lunch, a tea, made jam, and chat chat chat. Long time no see my friends, because I wanted to think many things. My mind was full by it. But now I can refresh. Thanks my friends!
By the way, I don't know why he forgot his treasure. What's his treasure? It's on picture. BarutanSeijin. Ahahaha
(I don't know how to say BarutanSeijin. Do you know Ultraman? If you know him, you know BarutanSeijin is alien)

MANICURE

I painted my fingernails. I don't like do it, because I cook every day and my nail's shape is not good. But tomorrow friends will visit my home, and then I try to smart(tasteful). This picture is not good, beside the point, but you can see that color. Yes, it's pink. I like pink, but in few years I didn't use pink, because I think it's too lovely for me, and last time is 1 year ago what to paint my fingernails. Anyway I'm looking forward tomorrow.

JAM

I made jam from the cherry today. It's very hard for me, because I'm acrophobia. You know good cherry is high place, and then I use stepladder, it's very high more than me (I'm 168cm and stepladder is over 200cm). And cherry is not big, if I want to made jam from it, I have to need many cherry. Anyway...

The first picture : I took cherry.
The second picture : I took out sheeds.
The last picture : This is jam.

I don't like made jam from the cherry, because as I told you it's not easy, I just think to made jam or not. And I told my firend about it, and he said "Why don't you made it?" It's not easy, but I'm free, so on Saturday my friends will visit my home, and then I think will to serve up for them. It's nice idea.
That jam is very delicious with vanilla ice cream.

CHERRY

I told in here about cherry in my little garden, now the best season for cherry. Can you see the first picture? There's many cherry, but not all ripen. Maybe in this weekend will be good taste. I want to made jam from the cherry in this year. I'm looking forward it very much! Anyway I have to take it than birds.

PERFECT BLUE

Do you know "Perfect Blue"? It's Japanese animation movie. It's suspense movie in 1998. That story is... about Japanese idol life. I think you'll think it's very simple movie, because about idol, but not. I try to see twice, but I cannot understand very well. That story is very complex. Anyway if you want to know about Otaku and idol, it's a good movie to teach. It's very reality like a disgusting. I don't know who is Otaku and idol, I've not like then, but all people thinking like this movie.
Next movie is "Sennen Joyu", I don't know what to say in English, maybe "1000 yeas of actress". That movie is the same directer with Perfect Blue, and picture is the same, and it's in 2002. This web site is " http://www.asahi-net.or.jp/~xw7s-kn/ " is not official, it's by movies stuff and in Japanese.
I watched Sennen Joyu today, it's first time, and it was... I don't know how to say. Anyway it's 15R, and then if you want to see it, be care.

MY DOCTOR

I have physician in charge, because I've heart disease and defibrillator in my body. Well I'll tell you it next time. Anyway I went to hospital today. I have to meet on a regular basis, but today is not, because I need my doctor. I talk with my doctor when I feel good, the reason is that. He is good medicine for me.
But now I feel so bad, because ex-boyfriend contact me tonight. The end of last year, he did it, but I didn't answer, but now again. I know there is courage for him, because you know, if you want to meet ex-boy/girlfriend, can you? In my way it's impossible. But someone do it too easy, they're like a friend, they want to make a friend, but it's impossible and crazy. If someone want to be like a friend with ex, I think someone still love ex. But if someone have no boy/grilfriend, no problem.
Is it my mistake? I think not. If you're my boyfriend, is it okay what I go to shopping with ex? Can I meet ex? It's very stange and disgusting.
Anyway now I'm lonesome, I don't answer him is not easy.

HEADACHE

I don't know why I've a headache today. I don't suffer from headaches, but I've it in few days. Very pain. Is it by barometric pressure? I don't know, but I saw the movie when I cry very much. That film is not sad story, but I cry... ahaha And then my headache is gone. It's strange.
Sometimes tear is good for health and heart, you know.

EX

Tomorrow is ex-boyfriend's birthday. Omedetooo!
I left him few days ago, because our opinion is different. I think not too different. And if he and I really think each other, there's solution, problem is gone. But now not, if I said "It's very strange, I don't like it", and he said "But it's normal in Spain" There's no solution. If he said "Tell me why you angry before to run", and I did not say anything. Because I cannot control myself. Tell me who can to control the mind? If I feel love, love is love, if I feel sad, sad is sad, if I feel disgusting, disgusting is disgusting... Can you control your mind? Anyway I still love him so much.
This my love is bigger in my mind more than before, it's new for me, and I cannot control it. I want to get him only for me, I want he will be like my opinion and mind. But our opinion for love is different, and then I try to close to his opinion, the first I can do it, but now I cannot do a like himself. Actually it's impossible, because I think I just want to get him, I know this my love is wrong. But I don't know how to love now.
He and I have different traditional, culture, and opinion. But I cannot to say that, because I only take care of my mind.
And then I left him, and I try to forget him, it's very hard. But it's better than I have jealousy and to be sad, to be crazy. Yes, I'm wrong, I know... But different is different, not join, because I think only myself and he think only himself.
I want to say him face to face "I'm sorry", because I know he is angry with me. But he doesn't give me that time.
¡Feliz cumpleaños!

SUNNY DAY

I have a small garden in my home, but actually not mine, it's my parents. Anyway there is a small garden, now a lot of birds come here, because there is many cherry. But not ripen yet. I don't know why birds come here. Their song is not good for my Fila, she wants to get them, and cry to them sometimes... she will be crazy...
Today I'm tired, because my dream was very bad, yesterday the same, it was very bad and like a real, I always in trouble in the dream in few days. I want to sleep very very well. But I know why, and I just need time. I'm going to tell about the reason someday.

GOLDEN WEEK

Golden week is in this week, it's Japanese long holiday week. Someone gets 9 holidays, but almost people get 4 days in this year. It's not long, but we think it's long. Because Japanese have not more long holidays.
You know May Day, in 1886 there was demonstration in Chicago, at that time the work time was 12 or 14 hours. So worker gave a demonstration of work time, "8 hours for work, 8 hours for rest, 8 hours for myself", it's nice idea. In Japan, its was starting in 1920, but the first was Heiminsha's tea time, it was little meeting.
Anyway now, 8 work time is nomal in here, but not real, many people working more. For example, my friend, he wake up at 6:00 am, and go to company at 6:30 am, he is in company around 7:30, and then working until lunch time at 12:00 pm, but sometimes he cannot to take a lunch, and working, working, working... he can back home at 10:00 pm or more late. Not 8 hours. And he can sleep at 1:00 am or 2:00 am. But it's nomal for many people in Tokyo. May day... what's May day? all people know work time is 8 hours.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Hi, I'm Michi, from Japan, and Japanese woman.
I've a natural for sewing, I love do it very much. And I sewing JINBE & YUKATA for myself.
Do you know JINBE & YUKATA? It's old traditional Japanese clothing, like KIMONO, it's very beautiful. And I want many people know and try to put on it. So I thought how show is good, yes, you know on the Internet is good way.
But I think only the web site is not good, because we cannot to know who is who. If I write diary here, you can know about me, yes not all, but you can know me more than nothing.

Anyway today is my Fila.'s birthday, she's my cat, very lovely. I had cat and dog 2 years ago. But they die for senility and traffic accident. It was very sad for me, and I thought I don't want to keep more. But 1 year ago, a girl came in my home, and she had 3 cats. Very small cat, because they're only 3 or 5-day-old baby. So their eyes was not open yet, and like a mouse. The girl said "I'm looking for master, can you?" I didn't want to keep any more, but I wanted to help her, and then I got 1 cat from her. Cat raising was very hard... but now she alive and very lovely.